Memories are Forever

I'm sitting here reflecting on the past couple of weeks and am feeling a little shell-shocked by it all if I'm honest.  Extreme highs, desperate lows, and pretty much every other emotion in-between.  Thinking about it, I could say the same for the whole year so far!
My mind is feeling a little overwhelmed in so many ways and I've been wondering where it will all end, or if this is just what life is like when you get older?  Or is it just that the last few years really have been as crazy as they seem?!!


Anyway, I wanted to write something here about my Grandma, and all that she meant to me.
I've been wanting to do it since I heard the news on Sunday 22nd July that she had passed away, but I can't seem to summon up the words.  I think it's because there aren't enough words to describe her and how I felt about her, how much I loved her, how much she has influenced me and how much I already miss her presence in the World.


When I think about it, it isn't so much words as it is a feeling I get when I smell a certain scent, see a certain flower, watch a certain thing on TV or eat a certain food.  At the moment, it's all a little raw so I find myself getting a little sad, but in a way it is reassuring at the same time.  I am reassured because this means she is in me, she is such a fundamental part of who I am, and that can never be taken away by her physical absence.  She will always be in my heart and therefore she'll never really be gone.


So, I am going to write out some thoughts/memories/random things as and when they come to me, so that you'll get to know a little about my Grandma and how amazing she was!

Cheers Grandma!!